The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 08, No. 49, November, 1861 by Various
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After much time wasted in these pursuits, attended by a mediocre progress in the ordinary course of study and what the French call _leçons d'agrément_, and we accomplishments, a critical moment came for Aurore. She was weary of frolic and mischief,--she had tormented the nuns to her heart's content. She knew not what new comedy to invent. She thought of putting ink in the holy water,--it had been done already; of hanging the parrot of the under-mistress,--but they had given her so many frights, there would be nothing new in that. She saw, one evening, the door of the little chapel open;--its quiet, its exquisite cleanliness and simplicity attracted her. She had followed thither to mock at the awkward motions of a little hunch-backed sister at her devotions,--but once within she forgot this object. A veiled nun was kneeling in her stall at prayer,--a single lamp feebly illuminated the white walls,--a star looked in at her through the dim window. The nun slowly rose and departed. Aurore was left alone. A calm, such as she had never known, took possession of her,--a sudden light seemed to envelop her,--she heard the mystical sentence vouchsafed to Saint Augustin: "_Toile, lege!_" Turning to see who whispered it, she found herself alone. "I cherished no vain illusion. I did not believe in a miraculous voice. I understood perfectly the sort of hallucination into which I had fallen. I was neither elated nor frightened at it. Only, I felt that Faith was taking possession of me, as I had wished, through the heart. I was so grateful, in such delight, that a torrent of tears inundated my face. 'Yes, yes, the veil is torn!' I said, 'I see the light of heaven! I will go! But, before all, let me render thanks. To whom? how? What is thy name?' said I to the unknown God who called me to him. 'How shall I pray to thee? What language worthy of thee and capable of expressing |
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