The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 09, No. 54, April, 1862 by Various
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narrow as it was, was making his own higher, more just; wondering if
the tears on her face last night, when she got up from her knees after prayer, might not help as much in the great cause of truth as the life he was ready to give. He was so used to his little wife now, that he could look to no hour of his past life, nor of the future coming ages of event and work, where she was not present,--very flesh of his flesh, heart of his heart. A gulf lay between them and the rest of the world. It was hardly probable he could see her as a woman towards whom another man looked across the gulf, dumb, hopeless, defrauded of his right. "She sent you some flowers, by the way, John,--the last in the yard,--and bade me be sure and bring you down with me. Your own colors, you see?--to put you in mind of home,"--pointing to the crimson asters flaked with snow. The man smiled faintly: the smell of the flowers choked him: he laid them aside. God knows he was trying to wring out this bitter old thought: he could not look in Dorr's frank eyes while it was there. He must escape to-night: he never would come near them again, in this world, or beyond death,--never! He thought of that like a man going to drag through eternity with half his soul gone. Very well: there was man enough left in him to work honestly and bravely, and to thank God for that good pure love he yet had. He turned to Dorr with a flushed face, and began talking of Floy in hearty earnest,--glancing at Ben coming up the hill, thinking that escape depended on him. "I ordered your man up," said Captain Dorr. "Some canting Abolitionist had him open-mouthed down there." The negro came in, and stood in the corner, listening while they talked. |
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