confide in, whither I meant to go, went out privately, and walked
away to Wycombe, having seven long miles thither, which yet seemed
little and easy to me, from the desire I had to be among friends.

As thus I travelled all alone, under a load of grief, from the sense
I had of the opposition and hardship I was to expect from my father,
the enemy took advantage to assault me again, casting a doubt into
my mind whether I had done well in thus coming away from my father
without his leave or knowledge.

I was quiet and peaceable in my spirit before this question was
darted into me; but after that, disturbance and trouble seized upon
me, so that I was at a stand what to do--whether to go forward or
backward.

Fear of offending inclined me to go back, but desire of the meeting,
and to be with friends, pressed me to go forward.

I stood still awhile to consider and weigh as well as I could the
matter. I was sensibly satisfied that I had not left my father with
any intention of undutifulness or disrespect to him, but merely in
obedience to that drawing of spirit, which I was persuaded was of
the Lord, to join with his people in worshipping Him; and this made
me easy.

But then the enemy, to make me uneasy again, objected, "But how
could that drawing be of the Lord which drew me to disobey my
father?"

I considered thereupon the extent of paternal power, which I found