that you pity me, and yet you do not know its meaning; for you at
least can live out the life for which God and nature have fitted
you, while I am fit for nothing. You know not what it is to be
shunned; to be avoided; to be feared! You go your way, and smile
and nod to those you meet, and they are pleased to see you. You are
welcome among your friends, as they to you. Live on in that
precious state, and feel blessed and happy, for there are worse
conditions, although you know it not.

And now I am going to tell you a strange thing. It is this: I have
shadowed your life from the hour of your birth. I have watched your
career, and where able have guided and helped you, knowing that you
were one whom I could love. I have helped to make you what you are,
and therefore my right of possession is doubly founded, even though
my love be too great to lead you astray. Gradually I led you up to
the hour when all was ripe, and then mentally impressed you with
the letter which you thought you received, and which I knew would
affect you through your strongest characteristics--love of
adventure, and--curiosity--as well as from the fact that you were
susceptible to mental influence. You came, and I was happy--more
happy than you will ever know--until my unsated Karma thwarted my
plan, and showed that while seeking my own peace, I might possibly
endanger yours. That ended all. I could go no further. But even
now, as before, I shall come to you in spirit, during the still
hours of night; for my love is more intense and strangely different
from that which waking men are wont to feel. It is that which
sometimes comes in dreams. Do you not know what I mean?

You will feel bewildered on reading this, and at a loss to
understand many things, but remember that your inward or spiritual