The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 05, No. 29, March, 1860 by Various
page 122 of 289 (42%)
page 122 of 289 (42%)
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"Soon,--very soon,--to-morrow;--let me go to-morrow, Sir. I long to be away!" she cried, some swift emotion banishing the calmness of her usual manner, as she rose, with eager eyes and a gesture full of longing. "You shall go, Effie," was all I could say; and with no word of thanks, she hastened away, leaving me so calm without, so desolate within. The same eagerness possessed her all that day; and the next she went away, clinging to me at the last as she had clung that night upon the river-bank, as if her grateful heart reproached her for the joy she felt at leaving my unhappy home. A few days passed, bringing me the comfort of a few sweet lines from Effie, signed "Your child." That sight reminded me, that, if I would do an honest deed, it should be generously done. I read again the little missive she had sent, and then I wrote the letter which might be my last;--with no hint of my love, beyond the expression of sincerest regard and never-ceasing interest in her happiness; no hint of Alfred Vaughan; for I would not wound her pride, nor let her dream that any eye had seen the passion she so silently surrendered, with no reproach to me and no shadow on the name I had given into her keeping. Heaven knows what it cost me, and Heaven, through the suffering of that hour, granted me an humbler spirit and a better life. It went, and I waited for my fate as one might wait for pardon or for doom. It came at length,--a short, sad letter, full of meek obedience to my will, of penitence for faults I never knew, and grateful prayers for my peace. |
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