I know not what I shall do! For now he will see all my private thoughts
of him, and all my secrets, as I may say. What a careless creature I
am!--To be sure I deserve to be punished.

You know I had the good luck, by Mr. Williams's means, to send you all my
papers down to Sunday night, the 17th day of my imprisonment. But now
these papers contain all my matters from that time, to Wednesday the 27th
day of my distress: And which, as you may now, perhaps, never see, I will
briefly mention the contents to you.

In these papers, then, are included, 'An account of Mrs. Jewkes's arts to
draw me in to approve of Mr. Williams's proposal for marriage; and my
refusing to do so; and desiring you not to encourage his suit to me. Mr.
Williams's being wickedly robbed, and a visit of hers to him; whereby she
discovered all his secrets. How I was inclined to get off, while she was
gone; but was ridiculously prevented by my foolish fears, etc. My having
the key of the back-door. Mrs. Jewkes's writing to my master all the
secrets she had discovered of Mr. Williams, and her behaviour to me and
him upon it. Continuance of my correspondence with Mr. Williams by the
tiles; begun in the parcel you had. My reproaches to him for his
revealing himself to Mrs. Jewkes; and his letter to me in answer,
threatening to expose my master, if he deceived him; mentioning in it
John Arnold's correspondence with him; and a letter which John sent, and
was intercepted, as it seems. Of the correspondence being carried on by
a friend of his at Gainsborough. Of the horse he was to provide for me,
and one for himself. Of what Mr. Williams had owned to Mrs. Jewkes; and
of my discouraging his proposals. Then it contained a pressing letter of
mine to him, urging my escape before my master came; with his half-angry
answer to me. Your good letter to me, my dear father, sent to me by Mr.
Williams's conveyance; in which you would have me encourage Mr. Williams,